COMING OFF, SLOWLY BUT SURELY

Yee Haw! I lost 5 lbs in the last 2 weeks! I know I haven’t been posting but, I have been a busy, busy girl. I haven’t been exercising like I should be. I know, I know, bad, bad girl. But hey, I am still losing weight! Yeah ME!!!!

This is a daily struggle and I MEAN STRUGGLE!!! I drink my water good through out the week but, the weekends are so hard. Eating is hard on the weekend too. My husband is not the best eater and LOVES buffets. I like Chinese every now and then but dang, this boy can eat it every week, probably every other day!

I have lost another inch on my hips but nothing on my waist. Total weight loss: 14.2 lbs, 7” off hips, 5 inches off waist.

I am proud of myself. Thanks you Lord for assisting me and believing in me.

Let's try this again

Ok, so I have been terrible at posting on here. Drama and life had taken over my abilty to get back on track until recently. I have lost 9lbs in 2 weeks. I am walking, lifting weights and doing exercise videos. The change is now. I am sick and tired of being overweight and unhappy with the way I look. Don't get me wrong, I am full of self confidenece but, I want to be more healthy and look better. I am not looking to turn heads, I am wanting to not get those, "oh, I feel so sorry for her" looks.
I guess the wake up call came when I found out my husband had an affair. Yep, you heard me right, my husband cheated on me. Wow, this is the first time I have written that down. I was totally blown away. I thought we were happy, well, I was. He has lost 60 olbs and a woman he worked with was heavily flirting with him and the both crossed the line. We are working on repairing our marriage, but, I am working on myself too. Not for him, for me. Now, don't start getting all judgemental and think, I am losing weight for him, because I am NOT. I am doing this for me.
Let's get this weight loss journey going and it WILL be a success!

THE DEVIL MADE ME DO IT

1st off I want to brag on myself! I have lost 10.2 lbs in the last 3 weeks. I have done well on work days but the weekend kills me! I can not stay on the diet wagon. Though I do TRY to make healthy choices, Society has made it hard for me to do so.

I have decided that fast food restaurants and buffets are the Devil’s work. He leads everyone to temptation and of course we drown ourselves in the desire of fatty foods! Pot lucks are another one of the devil’s games. There is too much to choose from and not everyone is watching what they eat.

Off my soap box for a while. Good luck to everyone trying to eat healthy!

SLOWLY PER SURELY

Today is weigh in day! I have lost 6.4 lbs! Sorry, I haven’t posted in a while but, I have been super busy!

The eating has gone good. I did fall off the wagon Saturday night. We went to a birthday party for some friends of ours 12 year old. I did good eating the hamburger with out a bun, but then peer pressure fell on me. There was cake and they kept telling me to eat cake, I kept saying no. I didn’t want to tell them I was on a diet because then I would get “that look”. You know the look I am talking about. Don’t set there and act like you don’t. YOU DO!

Anyway, I caved in and ate a piece of cake, not a big piece, but still a piece of cake. Absolutely not on my diet! It was so sweet! The cake part was good of course, but my favorite part… the icing was yucky sweet!

Sunday morning as I was getting dressed for church, I noticed that my clothes were a little looser. So I had to weigh! I had lost 5 lbs! I was so excited! I wasn’t supposed to weigh until today, but knowing that I had lost some weight made it exciting!

I did my measurement today also and there wasn’t that big of a change, maybe a inch here and there. I am not going to post anything with weight or measurements until I am through losing the weight. This is a hard journey for me and putting the info up for the world to see, I am not ready for that!

A few nights ago I was watching RUBY and the episode was about her letting go of the clothes she wore at 700 lbs. She was having a very hard time with that, I was thinking to myself… Girl, let them go! To me, I would have been glad to have gotten rid of the clothes. She is worried that she will need them again. I use to be that way. No more! I will be getting rid of my fat clothes, those stretchy pants… Gone! I don’t want them anymore. I have kept a few of my skinny clothes and pray that I will make it to wear them.

See ya smaller!

So far so good

I am at this moment hungry so I am chewing a piece of sugar free gum. I am so hoping that it curbs the hunger pain, really pains. The food is pretty decent, I have had worse… Yesterday, I ate the cream of broccoli soup- I give that 1 ½ thumbs up. The Dutch Chocolate and Orange Cream shakes are 2 thumbs up. The beef stew- 1 thumb. Last night for supper I had 4 oz of sirloin steak and a salad with cucumbers and celery with reduced fat dressing. That was a good meal.

Last night all I dreamt about was using the bathroom! I guess all the times I went yesterday and all the water I drank made me dream about it too. I got up 3x last night to use the bathroom! I was scare at one time I wouldn’t make it! Scary for a woman who has had a hysterectomy! My bladder ain’t what it use to be. It sucks getting older!

This morning I had the maple and brown sugar oatmeal. Not the best, but I have been told it takes a while to get use to the oatmeal. Maybe tomorrow I will try the eggs. Tonight we are having grilled pork chops. I have some asparagus in the cabinet; I will heat that up too. I am sure Annessa and Dewayne will eat something else!

I went to Karate last night and had a good work out. I might go walking this evening with Annessa if it isn’t raining. She needs the exercise too, plus we are doing a 5k in 3 weeks! Yesterday was a safe and good day as far as not having cravings. Today has not been too easy because my co-workers have been talking about food. Leigh had chocolate doughnuts, I looked at them longingly! Can you really look at food longingly? I can! Isn’t that terrible?

I gotta go, I will give the load down tomorrow about what I ate today. God Bless and Pray for me!

THE BEGNING TO AN END

I am a skinny girl trapped in a big girl’s body. Well, maybe not skinny but definitely smaller than I am at this moment. I am the biggest I have ever been in my life. I have been a big girl all my life and have tried every diet known to man. I have been on WW probably 3 times or more, I have tried Atkins, South Beach, I even been on Phen-Fen. Phen-Fen worked. I lost 80 lbs and gained it all back and then some. But, I was in my early 20’s, partying hard and not really trying to change what I ate. I ate what I wanted just not as much. Portion control. What is that?

I love food, I am not gonna lie. I love the way food feels in my mouth, I love the smell, I love the way it makes me feel when I eat good food. So, maybe I have a food addition. I have no idea; I have never been to counseling. I have been bulimic. I was in the 7th grade. I was a majorette and felt the pressure to be thinner. I was a size 10, far from being overweight. That was also the year that my sperm donor told me that as long as I was fat, I would never be accepted as his daughter. I left his house and have never really spoken to him since. I am now 39. I am sure he would be disgusted now if he saw me. Anyway, at that time, I would get up early, jog about 2 miles, come home eat yogurt, throw up, go to school, not eat lunch, come home, eat yogurt, throw up, eat supper with my family and throw up again. I did this for about 6 months. I got down to an 8 and was still picked on for being fat. I look at pictures of myself from then and think to myself, “Goodness, I was not even plump!”

Today I am embarking on the journey of Take Shape for life. You are eating 5 and 1. All portion controlled. Something I really need. This is supposed to make you want to eat healthy. I am optimistic about this journey. I need this to work. I am afraid that if I don’t loose weight I am going to die. I have a husband I dearly love, a step-daughter that is the light of my life and I want to grow old with them. At the weight that I am at now, I won’t. Surgery is out of the question for me. I know that you can cheat the surgery. I am tired of cheating!So far I have only had breakfast. Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal. Not the best tasting, but I have had worse! I am having 2 shakes today and 2 soups. I will give you the load down on them when I have them.

Wish me luck